Recently I was accused of being a glass half empty type of guy. My quick response to that is that I do not care if it is half full or half empty; I just want to do what I can to find the other half of the glass.
The reality is that it is much easier to focus on the down side of things than the good. I’ve struggled with this as long as I can remember. I was fortunate to be raised for a good part of my life by a single mother who did everything she could to give me the world. It taught me that the other half of the glass is out there somewhere, and if you try hard enough you just might find it. There is no need to settle on half empty or half full.
If you read the last blog post you know I’ve been struggling a bit with direction. With Ava on the way I feel like I need to get a few things figured out. If you know me and have made the mistake of asking what I do for a living you have most likely heard what I call my “5 minute monologue” about how I am employed.
Earlier today I had this fantastic meeting about how the federal funding for my program once again returned to the cutting block. This has happen before, and probably will happen again. We have yet to actually get cut. But suddenly being a dad to be it makes me look at it differently. Will the program get cut, my job with it? Will I be able to move out of this organization before a cut happens? Does it all even matter? It is an uncertain situation that is tough to be in, and it got me a little down.
I am in the middle of a few green/energy efficient manufacturing projects and decided at lunch to take my mind off of things and re-read Thomas Friedman’s Hot, Flat, and Crowded. When I opened the book up I found a bookmark my wife got me several years ago for Valentine’s Day. It read “To believe you can is everything”. It was her way of reminding me that she believes in me and I should learn to believe in myself.
I don’t know the next step, or even the basic direction I am going. I don’t know how I am going to change the world, but I want to. I will find the other half of my cup because I believe I can.
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